My situation: I have dual US/Canadian citizenship, from birth. I had spent 25 years of my life as an unpaid, volunteer rescuer, at more than 100 major disasters throughout the world. The World Trade Center was the 892nd collapsed building that I had crawled into, to rescue victims. I was flown to NYC in a private jet, with a USAF fighter jet escort authorized by a US Congresswoman and a US Air Force General.
I became severely injured, in many ways, at the World Trade Center. The subterranean area was still on fire when I crawled for 1 1/2 miles each way. I became poisoned, via my eyes, lungs, sinus and skin. The Laboratory Tests: The list of toxins found in my body at levels up to 5,000 x the max safe level is 35 pages long. This included 32 neural toxins at astronomical levels;e.g., lead: I had enough lead for 510 ( five hundred and ten) people to be legally certified as lead poisoned, in NYC.
At one point I had 47 simultaneous medical problems. Initially, I had many types of brain damage: I could not speak; I was blind; without warning, I would pass out unconscious; I had ‘black outs’, ‘whiteouts’ and ‘grey outs’. I have toxic glaucoma and 4 other brain-eye injuries, many kinds of ‘attacks’ and immunological system disorders, cerebral edema etc etc.etc. Now, I have been diagnosed with severe Central and Peripheral Neural Damage. Now, I have 30 simultaneous medical problems. The latest prognosis is that I have severe, systemic Peripheral Neuropathy. I am becoming paralyzed. The Doctors tell me they can do nothing to prevent this paralysis.
Over the years, I have gone to Service Canada 4 times to get Disability Benefits. You cannot imagine how intensely I struggled to remember dates that I worked, where I worked etc…to fill out the applications. Service Canada told me that it would be " a conflict of interest to help me". I struggled and exhausted myself to the point that I felt that I would die if I didn’t stop and focus on dealing with my health problems. Four different times, I worked to the point of ‘near death’ trying to get the forms completed. I felt that I would die, if I didn’t stop and recover. I never did get the forms completed. I was physically incapable of getting to the destroyed part of my mind where those memories were located.
Now, there are still ‘years of my life that I do not remember’. I am still very sick (last night was a battle). I got out of bed today at 1 pm. Foul tasting gases burped from my stomach, I was hot and feverish, My stomach was churning, diarrhea and twisting and turning all night with pain. Today, my entire body is full of pain. There is a constant, dull pain throughout my body with flashes of sharp pain (like a spear piercing my body) popping up all over. joining in the mix are really sore, sickening pain in my wrists, elbows, knees, and joints. It all blends together with a constant headache, sick to my stomach feeling with a tight chest.
. I have more than 4,000 medical documents from more than 90 Medical Specialists and Physicians; including, documents and a judicial determination that I am and have been permanently disabled; since, Sept 2001.
I have started my pension (with a great deal of help, completing the application forms over many months). Can I get any or all of the 15 years of disability payments that I was due and was too ill to complete the forms? I have no income other than my pension and I had $0.00 income; since, September 27, 2001 when I was first hospitalized and on ‘life support’. The Help to victims of the World Trade Center is more ‘political’ than ‘realistic’. It has been a huge and sad waste of time.
My brain has recovered a lot but my life still is full of incomprehensible suffering. I am trying to use the time that I have left; before becoming, completely paralyzed to save lives and train rescuers. I want to do more good, wih my life.
I feel that Service Canada should have helped me and/or the application for disability process should not exclude victims who are too severely disabled to complete the forms.