My stories a bit long, but I will be brief and stick to the key points.
I’m 49 years old and have worked for the same company for the past 20+ years. Rarely do I have a sick day.
Depression struck me at the age of 26 which forced me to drop out of a professional program at a local university. When I dropped out, I was at my lowest and saw a psychiatrist for a period of a year. I didn’t get better. While under his care, I had mounting student loan interest to pay off and I got a blue collar job and worked my way up the corporate ladder.
My life has been a living hell. I work full time but I barely interact with family and I spend most of my time isolated in a small dark room which keeps my anxiety low.
Two years ago, I saw my new family doctor and opened up about this. We tried a variety of meds, all made me feel horrible. The doctor did refer me to another psychiatrist who essentially said if meds don’t work, then shock therapy could be performed. I am not interested in this.
So, I go through life with every day being a day in hell. I see no options and struggle with depression and anxiety.
I am still at work, but I am at the end of my rope now which is why I have been Googling options for solutions because God knows I need one.