I have a bit of a complex question and I’m hoping for some general guidance.
I have been on LTD from a senior management position for the last year and a half due to CPTSD. Currently I am still within the “own work” threshold for disability. My work contributed heavily to the exacerbation of my mental illness, both the type of work and the general work environment.
I currently am starting to do better and while I have considerable limitations (quiet work environment, unable to supervise others, unable to be on call, require additional support with emotionally upsetting situations, require flexible timelines) that preclude me from doing my usual work, I am at the point where I believe I could do some work. Making it more complicated, my care team does not support me returning to that employer due to the extremely toxic environment.
I am reluctant to discuss looking for work that supports my needs re restrictions with my case manager as I’m afraid I will get cut off entirely as soon as I say I may be able to work to some degree. I need to be able to be somewhat choosey regarding employment as a bad fit will likely cause deterioration in my mental health.
Also, am I being foolish pursuing this at all if I don’t have to? No one is pressuring me right now and soon I believe my employer will terminate my employment if I just sit tight, which could be financially beneficial.
Finally, what happens if I get a position which aligns with my restrictions and I deteriorate again? Am I SOL?
Any advice on this situation would be very helpful.